Sunday Morning
Aug. 22nd, 2010 06:45 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sophiapThis week is an off week from gym stuff so I can let the joints, connective tissue, etc. have time to recover after what I've been putting them through. Also, the next phase of this workout plan looks like it will be pretty intense, so I'll need to go into it fresh. The goal of this stage is to get me to where I can do an unassisted pullup. We'll see...
I do have some work-work to do, but I brought my laptop home. Even so, I'm toying with the idea of actually going in for a few hours as it will be less likely that I'll be distracted by all the stuff I want to work on at home. Plus, there's a car wash nearby, and unlike the one closer to home, that one is usually pretty slow on weekends. Redefinition of job descriptions proceeds apace, and there is a good chance that a brand new position (one very much tailored to yrs truly) will come out of some of the departmental reorganization. Said reorganization is very much needed, as the team divisions and responsibilities just don't make sense any more with the way the work has changed. I just hope I come out of this with T as my direct leader. He's easily the best manager I've ever had. Very pragmatic, very analytical, very matter of fact. If there's an issue, he addresses it immediately and directly. If you get praise from him, it actually means something.
Really, the biggest thing about my job that stresses me out is the amount of work I have to do. A lot of it is not getting done, and while the higher-ups know this, there are some things that have had to be neglected (with their blessin) that are looking like they may well bite me in the ass if I don't get to them soon. Fortunately, B (department head and T's leader) has become better about protecting my time when special requests come in, and a lot of the web authoring stuff (HATE) that had defaulted to me is being punted to someone else.
The second biggest thing I have to deal with is in my own head. I constantly struggle with impostor syndrome. Constantly. One of my co-workers was shocked when I admitted this to her. What's funny is that rationally, I know I am more than competent, and that the reason I get so many special projects is that I can get them done faster than anyone else and with a minimum of panic. What's hard to shake is the believe that I'm barely scraping by at an acceptable level.
Yesterday, I was able to dig into the original fiction project that's been circling around in my head for a few years now. For some reason, the main character's voice finally gelled in my head and I was able to get the opening scene out of my head and into words.
One thing I need to be careful about is psyching myself out at this point with thoughts about the number of characters who are clamoring to be p.o.v. characters, and the ages of those characters. Some of them are in their early teens, others are in their late 30s/early 40s. It's an odd mix, that's for certain.
I do have some work-work to do, but I brought my laptop home. Even so, I'm toying with the idea of actually going in for a few hours as it will be less likely that I'll be distracted by all the stuff I want to work on at home. Plus, there's a car wash nearby, and unlike the one closer to home, that one is usually pretty slow on weekends. Redefinition of job descriptions proceeds apace, and there is a good chance that a brand new position (one very much tailored to yrs truly) will come out of some of the departmental reorganization. Said reorganization is very much needed, as the team divisions and responsibilities just don't make sense any more with the way the work has changed. I just hope I come out of this with T as my direct leader. He's easily the best manager I've ever had. Very pragmatic, very analytical, very matter of fact. If there's an issue, he addresses it immediately and directly. If you get praise from him, it actually means something.
Really, the biggest thing about my job that stresses me out is the amount of work I have to do. A lot of it is not getting done, and while the higher-ups know this, there are some things that have had to be neglected (with their blessin) that are looking like they may well bite me in the ass if I don't get to them soon. Fortunately, B (department head and T's leader) has become better about protecting my time when special requests come in, and a lot of the web authoring stuff (HATE) that had defaulted to me is being punted to someone else.
The second biggest thing I have to deal with is in my own head. I constantly struggle with impostor syndrome. Constantly. One of my co-workers was shocked when I admitted this to her. What's funny is that rationally, I know I am more than competent, and that the reason I get so many special projects is that I can get them done faster than anyone else and with a minimum of panic. What's hard to shake is the believe that I'm barely scraping by at an acceptable level.
Yesterday, I was able to dig into the original fiction project that's been circling around in my head for a few years now. For some reason, the main character's voice finally gelled in my head and I was able to get the opening scene out of my head and into words.
One thing I need to be careful about is psyching myself out at this point with thoughts about the number of characters who are clamoring to be p.o.v. characters, and the ages of those characters. Some of them are in their early teens, others are in their late 30s/early 40s. It's an odd mix, that's for certain.
